a hard time...

Well, we knew adoption was not for the faint of heart...
Its been a hard few days...Dan and I thought we were going to be "committing" to two little girls that would come home and be a part of our family.  This is not so...

There is so much more...the adoption world is a crazy place...so many variables, so many unknowns.  

I am learning that they don't call it a "ransom" for nothing...

I've had moments when I've thought about not doing this...not adopting.  Then our Lord shows me these things...

 These are not my words...but they have spoken to me over the past few days of difficulty.
May God continue to break my heart for the things that break His...



From www.obedienttogodscalladoption.blogspot.com/2012/01/i-came-across-this-today-while-running.html

 May God Bless You...with Tears and Anger, Discomfort and Foolishness

May God bless you with discomfort at easy answers, half truths, and superficial relationships, so that you may live deep within your heart.

May God bless you with anger at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people, so that you may work for justice, freedom and peace.


May God bless you with tears to shed for those who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation, and war, so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and to turn their pain in to joy.


And may God bless you with enough foolishness to believe that you can make a difference in this world, so that you can do what others claim cannot be done.
-Franciscan prayer

 "How often do we think a blessing should look like anger or discomfort or tears?  What a perfect reminder that we are never promised an easy road, or a carefree experience here on Earth.  What we are promised is to be saved by Christ if we ask and follow through with faith, to be transformed by Him so that we can be more like Him.  We are promised to be indwelt with the Holy Spirit to guide us.  While reading this, I thought about how we always view blessings as a comfortable experience, but to be blessed like this, blessed with a heart that breaks for the things God's heart breaks for, that is truly a blessing to beg Abba for.  If we love as He has commanded, and we reach out as He has asked, and we stand up and fight when it is needed, we are truly shining His light this world.  If we never experience this kind of blessing, we may forget the orphan and the widow, we may ignore the poor and the hurting, the lost and the broken.  So tonight, I cry out to Abba please, bless me in these ways!"  
From www.obedienttogodscalladoption.blogspot.com/2012/01/i-came-across-this-today-while-running.html

  
 And yet another quote that has spoken to me this week...
 
 "Excellence is the result of caring more than others think is wise,
risking more than others think is safe,
dreaming more than others think is practical,
 and expecting more than others think is possible." ~Stephen Covey